Tuesday, October 19, 2010

2 weeks...

Only 2 more weeks...until I go back to work that is. I can't believe it is already here. You think that 3 months is going to go so slowly, but it doesn't...it flies by! I feel such conflicting emotions. I do love my job...it is very low stress, I love the doctor I work with as well as the other staff members, I feel confident in what I'm doing. BUT it is so hard to think about leaving Elliott. I think part of the difficulty is just thinking about trusting someone else. I was talking to my sister about the fact that when she was first born, I didn't trust myself with her because I felt like I didn't know what I was doing. Over the past 3 months, I've slowly learned her preferences, her dislikes, what her cries mean, and it's just so hard to trust someone else.

I really never understood why people had a hard time leaving their kids, but now I know why. I'm just going back part time, and our families are helping a lot, but it is still hard. I'm just trying to treasure each day I have with her now. I think it will definitely get easier to leave her once I get into a normal routine (I definitely am a creature of routine), and see that she does fine when I'm away. I think it will also make me appreciate the time I have with her even more...but it still doesn't make it easy. Do you guys have any advice for the transition?


  1. I never realized how hard it would be to leave a baby to go to work. My time will come too and I'm already dreading it even though we don't have a date. (and I don't have a job...) So I can't offer suggestions, but I can understand how tough this is. I'm so glad you're going part-time!!!

  2. I'm not going to lie, it was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. But, honestly as time went by I knew i made the right decision. It's still incredibly hard to leave Lucy, but she has so much fun at her baby school and I love that my job so much and feel it gives us our own time which I think is healthy. Still to this day, I almost get butterflies on my drive home knowing I'm going to get my sweet girl. Our time together is precious and I really do feel like I am a better Mommy getting to both work and be a parent. Like you said, I thrive in routine and I see how well Lucy has done and I KNOW you and Elliott will be the same way. I think it's great you are getting to work part-time...I truly think that is the ideal situation. You're going to be great Erica! ;)

  3. I know it seems hard now, but it will get better and even deserving! I leave Olivia for 3 hours a day in the nursery and it was really hard at first (other kids sicknesses, not being with her, her not getting enough attention, etc.) but it is great now! The workers love her and I feel like she learns a lot from other people! Plus, (this is rewarding) today the worker told me that when the 11:30 bell (when I pick her up) rang, she started getting fussy, then parents started picking up their kids and she got even fussier. Then I showed up and she smiled so big and held her arms out to me! That feeling makes leaving her so worth it! You'll do great!