I really never understood why people had a hard time leaving their kids, but now I know why. I'm just going back part time, and our families are helping a lot, but it is still hard. I'm just trying to treasure each day I have with her now. I think it will definitely get easier to leave her once I get into a normal routine (I definitely am a creature of routine), and see that she does fine when I'm away. I think it will also make me appreciate the time I have with her even more...but it still doesn't make it easy. Do you guys have any advice for the transition?
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Only 2 more weeks...until I go back to work that is. I can't believe it is already here. You think that 3 months is going to go so slowly, but it doesn't...it flies by! I feel such conflicting emotions. I do love my job...it is very low stress, I love the doctor I work with as well as the other staff members, I feel confident in what I'm doing. BUT it is so hard to think about leaving Elliott. I think part of the difficulty is just thinking about trusting someone else. I was talking to my sister about the fact that when she was first born, I didn't trust myself with her because I felt like I didn't know what I was doing. Over the past 3 months, I've slowly learned her preferences, her dislikes, what her cries mean, and it's just so hard to trust someone else.